Welcome to my life again.

I don't really know how to start this post.

my beloved father died 14 days ago, since then my whole life fucked up as hell.
Everything went wrong, everything I touched broke, my boyfriend didn't mind.

My family was there for me all the time. My dads 3 best friends also did everything they could to help me and I'm really happy about them being here.
Just right now, these 3 guys are my idols. I love them <3

His funeral took place in his birthplace yesterday. It was horrible, but at least I had a very good friend with me.

Gotta tell, I actually really hate people saying "omg that's so sad, you can talk to me always if you need someone to talk to" WTF SHUT THE FUCK UP. Noone of you would even CARE about what I'd tell you. I talked to 3 people who said that and after writing the 3rd sentence NOONE of them answered anymore. YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT FEELS LIKE SEEING YOUR FATHER DIE, SO SHUT UP FOOLS, IF YOU CAN'T HOLD YOUR PROMISES, YOU MAKE IT EVEN WORSER.

There were actually 3 persons who really cared about me. Only 1 of them called me the next morning, he came over and cared about me JUST LIKE A REAL FRIEND.


anyway.
R.I.P daddy.
I love you <3



so. Anyway².
I'll post more tomorrow.