Sehnsucht

 I wanna go back to Tokyo so bad.
I'm quite depressed these days. School sucks so fuckin' bad at the moment and the weather in Karlsruhe is rainy, dark and cold.
When I found a photo of Tokyo I was happy for a second. Somehow I remembered all the beautiful moments I spent there. I miss all the citylights, the noises, the people and of course my boyfriend...

Not gonna lie, but I was the happiest girl on earth when I've been there. Finally beeing at my boyfriend's side, walking on the streets of Tokyo, the city I always wanted to visit...  it felt like a dream came true... NO! It WAS a dream that got real.

but I can go there when I'm 18. So in 1 year. My mother wants me to finish my school first... but I won't do it. I can't. This school is too hard for me and I guess I can't even finish my first year. In the school I was before I was the best of the class. Now I'm the worsest student in class. It... well, it hurts.

Do you know that feeling when you wanna escape from everything? When you wanna leave all your fears and worry behind? And you just want to be happy? Then you know how I feel. I'm just not happy with my life like it is now. I need to change something... but how? 

I so wish I could go to Tokyo again. Maybe for a few months or such. Or at least  for 1 month.

I like germany a lot... but Karlsruhe, not even Berlin is as awesome as Tokyo. Everyone who has been there thinks like that too, I guess.

well, enaugh. I think you know how I feel...
thanks for reading. <3